Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Message for me & you

Grab a little drink and get cozy, because I'm about to get real with you and this might take some time than usual. I love talking about beauty, capturing flowers and buying new makeup, but I also love to open my heart and talk for a little. I don't do this much in real life which means this is reliving for me.

Life. It's a tough thing. It can be all pink and sparkly one second, then turn into something gray and depressing. Oh yes I've said it. It's a little scary for me to speak with words, because I'm afraid I'll offend someone in some way, but I really do hope with all of my heart that you will catch my mindset. If not, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that my words were hurtful to you, because that's something I would never do. Intentionally. Okay, let's get right into what I was saying. On those "gray" episodes when everything is falling, life, career and every single thing, maybe even your dreams look pointless I want to you to find strength to wait. I hope you'll find THE STRENGTH to wait, and I hope you'll shut your inner demons and stop feeding them. You know it's better to not to think from time to time. It's better to shut your mind and go to sleep. On times like this the only thing that will help you is TIME and WORK. I know how hard it is to convince yourself to work at times when all you want to do is nothing, but after having your "ME" time and spending it the way that you've wanted, whether it's laying in the couch and watching movies or listening to some music and crying, it's your responsibility to take care of your own world. And for me it starts with my mental health. I think we need to take care of ourselves first than the surroundings. There is a saying - YOU CAN NOT POUR FROM AN EMPTY CUP. Which covers everything, I guess?!

Now let's get more real. I'm saying all of this because I'm going through this. I am feeling it. Currently I'm feeling everything. I'm healing, working on myself whilst trying not to bother anyone. It's not easy to get yourself together and glue all of your shuttered pieces. I hope this doesn't sound like crying to you, because what I really do is document my progress. I'm documenting myself and creating myself at the same time. I am trying to let go all of the bad and let in all the good stuff. I am trying to water all the flower seeds inside my soul. I am trying. And writing all this down makes me realize how a lot of things actually are. It helps me to see the image fully. And when I think that this might help someone too, I already feel the good vibes coming around my way. I am growing, and so are you, but let me tell you it's the most painful yet the most beautiful thing at the same time.

Lastly, I know I've said this a lot, but I want to say it again that I'm always down for a chat. If you're feeling sad, or need someone or idk wanna talk to someone just DM me -

Let's help each other. Let's make each  other grow. Compliment each other. Feel each other. Complete each other. This world is full of so much cruel and evil, and let's be the good. Let's change.

1 comment :

  1. I totally understand this lovely, bad mental health periods are so real and can really suck. Its so important that we look after ourselves because at the end of the day, we are stuck with ourselves for life. We are the most important! I hope you're okay and always here if you need a chat!

    Lucy | Forever September